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[25 Oct 2009|11:43pm] Today I was suppose to go to the U2 concert at the rose bowl in pasadena but didn't feel like going. So I didn't others made my dayyou made me cry

[21 Oct 2009|05:12pm] I always thought that I'd always realize when I was becoming a different person, but I guess you never really know how much you've changed until someone tells you. Maybe I did know but just want to come face to face with the reality of it. But then I again when I do look back on it, I was completely different person, but I grew out of it, no matter what I know I will always snap back to my normal self. Right know I'd say I am back to my normal self, or at least I hope I am. I find it weird when people feel afraid to tell me things about myself when they are close friends of mine. I know sometimes I can be very standoffish but thats just my nature But just because I may act like that I am always willing to here others concerns or worries about myself or even them. I know I may not be the most straight forward person because I hold my tongue more than I should, but I highly respect the people who will tell it how it is & is going to be, even if it may hurt my feelings or others. Because to me, honesty is something I value a lot, if your going to hide something from some body, then you damn well better be good at it. Because hiding something can hurt more than the truth itself Today I had a 3 hour lunch with Wendi at the Cheesecake Factory and then a talk with Cathy, its funny the things you discover and reflect back on about others and yourself. Maybe I'm just growing up faster then the people around me others made my dayyou made me cry

[07 Oct 2009|01:11am] Tuesday's are always the days when I have to face reality and be reminded of how unhappy I really am It is the day where I feel most hopeless and lost, but yet it is also the most important day of the week for me Everyday I wish things were different, I wish I were different and would like to feel like a normal person again, but I can't because I function differently from the people I know, which makes it difficult to talk about because its hard to understand, so I just keep it to myself. But it's all too much to bare I don't want to cry every night and think of horrible things anymore, I just want it to all go away I've been going through this for 6 years and I just wish I was finally alright I don't know how long it will take for me to be okay again and that scares me every day But some things just take greater time to overcome others made my dayyou made me cry

San Francisco [04 Oct 2009|11:02pm] San Francisco was a lot of fun. Stayed with Jameson, got to see Sussie, Travis, and Jojo. Went to Lovefest, shit was so hectic, so I left early with Jojo, got food, met a girl who was friends with Jenny and went to school with her. I don't feel like explaining every detail but in a nut shell It was an awesome weekend, ran into ppl I didn't expect to see. My body is sore and I am exhausted. Drinking wine & bonding with one of your best friends is always nice. I love getting to see my friends do their own thing and enjoying their different lifestyle. I had fun with everyone I got to hangout with and miss them already. Sorry was all I needed to here, apologies are always nice when your not expecting it, thank-you for that This weekend couldn't have been any better, minus the naked old men, ick others made my dayyou made me cry

Happy Birthday to me [20 Sep 2009|11:42pm] School is depressing How much free time I have is depressing Not having a job is depressing Culver City is depressing, Life in general right now is kinda depressing, but oh well ;) 2 others made my dayyou made me cry

[17 Sep 2009|12:00am] So my birthday is near by and basically all my close friends are gone others made my dayyou made me cry

[08 Sep 2009|08:37pm] SMC WHAT UP others made my dayyou made me cry

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